One of Those Days

Please forgive me in advance for this totally selfish rant. Feel free to skip down to the next posting if you wish. It's much more fun than this one.

It snowed this morning. On November 23 it has either snowed or rained for the last 36 years. It was kind of nice to see the fluffy, almost cloud-like, white stuff coating the lawn this morning. I still felt just as crappy as I did when I went to bed last night. Not sick-crappy, but crappy-crappy. Perhaps it's because I'm no longer mid-thirties, perhaps it's PMS, perhaps I'm just tired. Today, and last night, I've just been feeling like I can't please anyone. My husband, my mother, my father, my kids.

PC was going to pick me up early from work today so that we could make a 3:00 show of Harry Potter. The kids have a half day today for the holiday....Girl and SmallBoy, that is. LargeBoy will be at school all day. Ok, so plans changed, no biggie. Well, I had forgotten that Girl had made plans last week to go see the same movie. Those plans had to be changed because of a conflict with church and, ultimately, were changed this afternoon...makes sense, no school. Apparently, I didn't do the math. Girl out with friends + PC & I out at the movies - LargeBoy at school = SmallBoy home alone. Not an option.

PC had an appointment that he needed to keep today so, I offered to come home at lunch and bring SmallBoy back to work with me for a couple of hours. I've got nothing to do anyway, so it's not like he'd be keeping me from getting anything done. PC insisted that I stay at work and that he would stay home. So now I feel like crap, because the last few times something's happened where SmallBoy would be alone, he's stayed home and, therefore, missed other appointments and opportunites. I can't ask Girl to change her plans because I made her do it once before and, when she rescheduled for this afternoon, I assumed LargeBoy was going to be home. Now, Girl feels like she's letting us down.

That was #1. #2 - Missing Thanksgiving to be with in-laws instead of my family. I love my in-laws and I can't wait to be over there tomorrow. We all have a blast!! Unfortunately, there's a bit of stress in our lives with other family members, and Poor Fabulous Mother is in the middle of it all and hardly ever gets to see her grandkids. It's a long story, but my poor mom is stuck smack in the middle of it and I feel horrible that I'm letting her down - and my sis.

#3 My half-sis, KR is going to be in town on the 27, 28, & 29 of December, leaving again on the 30th. We're trying to find a time that works for my dad & KR, my sis, and us to get together. Well, I can't find a time. I don't know what Girl's basketball schedule is until, literally, that week. Not to mention that it's nearly impossible to get together on a week night to do anything, let alone Christmas. 30th would have been easier, but KR needs to get home, so we'll punt. But I feel like I'm letting my dad & KR down, cuz I can't make any plans yet.

GRRRRRRRr I could really use a good glass of wine right now. Nope, can't. Still at work. CRAP.

Thank you for letting me vent. I know that I shouldn't worry about pleasing everyone all of the time and that I should have "me" time. I don't know what it is about today or yesterday, even, that's making me feel this way, but I don't like it. Only two more hours until PC comes to spring me from work, though. So THAT's A good thing.