Wednesday, November 23, 2005

One of Those Days

Please forgive me in advance for this totally selfish rant. Feel free to skip down to the next posting if you wish. It's much more fun than this one.

It snowed this morning. On November 23 it has either snowed or rained for the last 36 years. It was kind of nice to see the fluffy, almost cloud-like, white stuff coating the lawn this morning. I still felt just as crappy as I did when I went to bed last night. Not sick-crappy, but crappy-crappy. Perhaps it's because I'm no longer mid-thirties, perhaps it's PMS, perhaps I'm just tired. Today, and last night, I've just been feeling like I can't please anyone. My husband, my mother, my father, my kids.

PC was going to pick me up early from work today so that we could make a 3:00 show of Harry Potter. The kids have a half day today for the holiday....Girl and SmallBoy, that is. LargeBoy will be at school all day. Ok, so plans changed, no biggie. Well, I had forgotten that Girl had made plans last week to go see the same movie. Those plans had to be changed because of a conflict with church and, ultimately, were changed this afternoon...makes sense, no school. Apparently, I didn't do the math. Girl out with friends + PC & I out at the movies - LargeBoy at school = SmallBoy home alone. Not an option.

PC had an appointment that he needed to keep today so, I offered to come home at lunch and bring SmallBoy back to work with me for a couple of hours. I've got nothing to do anyway, so it's not like he'd be keeping me from getting anything done. PC insisted that I stay at work and that he would stay home. So now I feel like crap, because the last few times something's happened where SmallBoy would be alone, he's stayed home and, therefore, missed other appointments and opportunites. I can't ask Girl to change her plans because I made her do it once before and, when she rescheduled for this afternoon, I assumed LargeBoy was going to be home. Now, Girl feels like she's letting us down.

That was #1. #2 - Missing Thanksgiving to be with in-laws instead of my family. I love my in-laws and I can't wait to be over there tomorrow. We all have a blast!! Unfortunately, there's a bit of stress in our lives with other family members, and Poor Fabulous Mother is in the middle of it all and hardly ever gets to see her grandkids. It's a long story, but my poor mom is stuck smack in the middle of it and I feel horrible that I'm letting her down - and my sis.

#3 My half-sis, KR is going to be in town on the 27, 28, & 29 of December, leaving again on the 30th. We're trying to find a time that works for my dad & KR, my sis, and us to get together. Well, I can't find a time. I don't know what Girl's basketball schedule is until, literally, that week. Not to mention that it's nearly impossible to get together on a week night to do anything, let alone Christmas. 30th would have been easier, but KR needs to get home, so we'll punt. But I feel like I'm letting my dad & KR down, cuz I can't make any plans yet.

GRRRRRRRr I could really use a good glass of wine right now. Nope, can't. Still at work. CRAP.

Thank you for letting me vent. I know that I shouldn't worry about pleasing everyone all of the time and that I should have "me" time. I don't know what it is about today or yesterday, even, that's making me feel this way, but I don't like it. Only two more hours until PC comes to spring me from work, though. So THAT's A good thing.


Felicity said...

huh, my Girl throws a hissy every time she's even vaguely inconvenienced...wish she felt more like your Girl, at least sometimes.
Re drinking at work, I've done it. On a really bad day once, I went and drank shots of tequila at lunch. Then a fat gross man came on to me which kind of ruined everything. If I had to be hit on, couldn't the guy have been hot?
Hope you feel better.

mommyguilt said...

Thanks, Felicity, for the laugh! I'm definitely smiling and cracking up at the picture in my head! Girl USED to throw hissy fits. She's sort of come around to acceptance now, when things don't go her way. took a LONG time, though.

Eileen said...

Wait a minute, today is your birthday!? Right? I just looked back in your posts to check. Sorry, I forgot. HAPPY BIRHTDAY!!!!! Enjoy your day!!! And Have A Happy Thanksgiving, Thanks for all your wonderful posts and comments that help us all get through the days!

Octoberbabies said...

Happy birthday anyway, sugar-booger. Make sure to celebrate it when the stars are properly aligned.


Felicity said...

and oh yes happy happy birthday. Enjoy your trip around the sun and have a celebratory year.
p.s. Not only was the guy fat and gross, but he sat at the bar eating fried foods before he came on to me. Ew!? Did he have a toothbrush handy? Doubt it.

Kristina Chew said...

Happy Birthday--I remember when birthdays were other people getting the party, presents, fun ready for me, rather than yet another day of yet another runaround! Mine always occurs in the midst of exam period so I just forget about it and then it's Xmas.

Happy Happy Birthday!

Lora said...

Happy Birthday! Hope that once you got home your day was happier and that you finally got to have at least one, no make that several glasses of your favorite....Beaujolais!
Good stuff that red wine, sure does the trick!

Tina said...

Happy Birthday to you! Hang in there, you had a tough day! You sure help us by getting us through our days! I know reading your blog and all the fellow bloggers blogs (tongue twister) is my salvation most times!

Juggling Mother said...

Happy birthday. Hope its getting better now work is over!

Happy Thanksgiving too. Today is a day to be doubly happy, which is probably why you're not - everythings a bit of a let down once you're grown up with responsibilities & stuff:-(

My advice is forget everything, have a drink, Snuggle with PC & remember it'll seem better in the morning.

Well, in some morning anyway.

mommyguilt said...

Thank you to everyone! You're all truly wonderful! Yes, my day got infinitely beter when I got home. Gotta go shower and get cute for our gig tonight. I'll post tomorrow. Hope you all had a great thanksgiving. Thanks for the bday wishes!

"Sugar Booger" - I like that one, sal! LOLOL

Michelle said...

Happy belated Birthday! Did you get that extra glass of wine? :)

mommyguilt said...

oh god yes! And then some!!!!!

gretchen said...

Well, I'm awfully late to the party, but happy birthday!!

I was feeling pretty down on the 23rd also, but don't know why? Sometimes all the holiday anticipation can be hard on your emotions.

I'm sure you're all better by now. Hope you're still celebrating!

mommyguilt said...

Nah, not at all. Never too late for the party! Thanks for the wishes. Must have just been one of those blah days on the 23rd!